What have we done?

We’re making a new album and we need help. Asking for help isn’t something that comes naturally for me. In fact, I’ve been known to be completely laden with bags navigating car doors, unlocking the house and sloughing my burdens into a pile on the floor all the while asserting I don’t need help. All while ready hands were willing. Much to my chagrin, then being told by a dear heart that they won’t ask me “if” they can help anymore but instead ask me “how” they can help…because, they know I need it even when I don’t.

Now that my brother’s band is stepping out in faith following the Lord’s confirmed leading to make a new album, I have moments of fear wondering what have we done? My mind races to figure out how I could sacrifice savings (even though I’ve resigned from my largest client recently), or what I could sell (surely my extra clothes could bring in a few dollars?), or who I could personally ask to contribute (even though I don’t want anyone to think I view them merely as a checkbook).

All this betrays that I have lingering vestiges of thinking I must figure this out on my own. That I have to carry all the burdens by myself. That if I don’t do something about it, surely no one else will. That I can’t stop, and risk needing help, so I can rest.

But when Christ catches me, He speaks strongly

I made you and I will carry you! Isaiah 46:4

When I try to carry the load, it only leads to captivity. But when I allow Him to carry me, He delivers me! Delivers me into peace not based on circumstances.

Peace when I don’t know where another $16,000 is going to come from. Peace when I don’t know details for our recording time like: where we will stay, if I’ll be able to cook dinners so we can save enough money to make our food budget, which of the eleven people involved will be there each day…

Then again I take my thoughts captive to the obedience of Christ. Releasing everything once again. I need help. This is far too great for me to figure out. And that’s OK. In fact, not merely OK, this is as it ought to be. A dear friend whose wedding I stood in shared these words from their recent church staff retreat,

“If your vision does not intimidate you, it may be insulting to God.”

Won’t you pray this over us and your own life and those you love?

To this end also we pray for you always that our God will count you worthy of your calling and fulfill every desire for goodness and the work of faith with power, so that the name of our Lord Jesus will be glorified in you, and you in Him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Thessalonians 1:11-12

Lord bless you each! May we together bring Him greater glory. Meleah


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